Sunday, 22 November 2009

by Rudyard Kipling

michelangelo_sistine_god.jpg art image by poodlewoman2008

When Earth's last picture is painted
And the tubes are twisted and dried
When the oldest colors have faded
And the youngest critic has died
We shall rest, and faith, we shall need it
Lie down for an aeon or two
'Till the Master of all good workmen
Shall put us to work anew
And those that were good shall be happy
They'll sit in a golden chair
They'll splash at a ten league canvas
With brushes of comet's hair
They'll find real saints to draw from
Magdalene, Peter, and Paul
They'll work for an age at a sitting
And never be tired at all.
And only the Master shall praise us.
And only the Master shall blame.
And no one will work for the money.
No one will work for the fame.
But each for the joy of the working,
And each, in his separate star,
Will draw the thing as he sees it.
For the God of things as they are!

Friday, 13 November 2009

My Lord Spiritual Archbishop of Canterbury Dr Rowan Williams.

I was singularly impressed and moved by Dr Williams sermon and found the words of Geoffrey Studdert-Kennedy particularly illuminating.

A sermon at a Service to mark the Passing of the World War One Generation

Wednesday 11 November 2009

A sermon given by the Archbishop of Canterbury in Westminster Abbey on Armistice Day 2009, following the deaths of the last remaining UK veterans of World War One. The service marked the passing not only of the veterans of that conflict, but also the whole generation whose lives spanned the twentieth century.

The Archbishop of Canterbury The Archbishop of Canterbury

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The memorials in every town and village still bring it starkly home to each one of us. The First World War was a huge collective bereavement. The generation that lived through the War was a generation both literally depleted by mass slaughter and depleted or diminished in another way by the loss of so much confidence and aspiration. All around were the signs of absent contemporaries; and for many, the continuing trauma of having seen friends butchered hideously in huge numbers in front of their eyes. There were absent sons and daughters, parents, brothers and sisters, husbands and wives, lovers, colleagues, neighbours: a routine intensity of loss.

But beyond that, many believed that the greatest loss in the war was the conviction of human purpose and human meaning. The brilliant glow of the Edwardian autumn, about which so much has been written and imagined, gave way to the cruellest winter conceivable. Not for nothing is the best recent anthology of First War poetry entitled The Winter of the World. An automatic belief in national righteousness, governmental wisdom, the trustworthiness of official communication and popular media alike – all these were shaken apparently beyond repair. The generation that discovered this had to find their way forward into the twentieth century with maps and landmarks damaged almost unrecognisably.

What is extraordinary is that for so many of them some features of the map survived. It is not true, if you look at the rest of the century, that all conviction about the moral responsibilities of society were lost in the trenches along with the millions of young lives. The century that this generation lived through was a century of renewed awareness of poverty and injustice in Britain, of recklessly brave resistance to tyranny and bigotry in another war, of the struggle to build what we might now call a sustainable society in the wake of that war – through the Welfare State in Britain and through new patterns of political stability and co-operation in Europe. On the world stage, it was the generation that transformed Empire into Commonwealth. It is a story of some real heroism – the survivors of one massive military slaughter becoming, so often, the civilian heroes (and in some cases the victims) of other great struggles. What we are doing today is not just marking a chronological moment but acknowledging the achievement of a generation who managed to recreate at a deeper level some of that shattered idealism – to recreate it without the easy optimism and the bland confidence in progress.

For many of those who actually lived through the nightmares of the First War, the iron that entered their souls helped them face the century with a depth of vision and courage that still arrests us. To read Peter Parker's fine book on Harry Patch, The Last Veteran, is to see something of what the experience of the war created in one man; to see a kind of depth and human solidity shaped by the tragedy. Many of us will have memories of neighbours and family members who showed the same solidity. This does not justify, explain or excuse that tragedy, but it is simply part of the picture. The war shattered so many illusions for those who suffered in the trenches and further afield, as well as on the Home Front. But it also sorted out the wheat from the chaff, and built some powerful moral clarities. And some, at least, of those who tried to make sense of where God had been in all this realised that losing the safe, problem-solving God who protected nations and empires might itself be a gift, a moment of truth that brought the reality of God closer, recognised or not.

Geoffrey Studdert-Kennedy, the charismatic military chaplain universally known as 'Woodbine Willie', was one of those who tried to make sense of this. What he wrote can still shock and challenge in deep ways. One of his meditations on 'God and Prayer' begins by evoking a scene in the trenches: 'I wish that chap would chuck his praying. It turns me sick. I'd much rather he swore like the sergeant.' So is prayer useless? Is God truly absent and powerless? Studdert-Kennedy simply answers that prayer won't save us from suffering any more than it saved Christ from his cross. But it is the only thing that makes us able to fight against evil in the only way that will actually transform the situation as Christ did – by selfless compassion, with all the risk that carries.

In all his work, in his sermons, his meditations, his astonishing poems, so many of them cast in the voice of the ordinary soldier in the trenches, full of protest and apparent blasphemy, Studdert-Kennedy argues against the bland problem-solving God. His commitment is to the God who is discovered in the heart of your own endurance and pain – not a solution, not a Father Christmas or a fairy godmother, but simply the one who holds your deepest self and makes it possible for you to look out on the world without loathing and despair.

Shocking and stark as it was, the way Studdert-Kennedy talked and wrote was pretty well the only religious response that was at all credible to those who were living through the daily nightmare. And this may explain just a little how those who did come through were able to find some deep foundation for surviving the rest of the century with courage and a kind of faith. In the heart of the terror and butchery, they had found that they were still there – they were real to themselves and each other; and if there was any God, he was what helped them be real in that darkness. Maybe the simple fact of being real was what kept that generation faithful and more than faithful, creative and brave in a century of yet more darkness.

And perhaps what made the spreading effect of the war so lethal and corrosive, what helped the rising tide of scepticism and the sense of the absence of value and meaning throughout the century, was that the sort of question Studdert-Kennedy asked was rapidly forgotten. Too many religious people went back to a comfortable God. Too many people in general dusted off the clichés of the pre-war period – and too many simply reacted with anger and contempt against all of that. The sad standoff between despairing selfishness and superficiality on the one hand and inhuman new political philosophies on the other (communism and fascism) was fostered by a readiness to forget the hard lessons learned by those who'd been on the front line. In the darkest places, you discover you are real to yourself and one another. And if you're not called – mercifully – to such places, you will need disciplines of thinking and imagination to keep yourself real: to fight off easy answers, false gods, stifling systems. Prayer is one such discipline, essential and focal for people of faith; but there are others. We can still choose honesty or dishonesty. We can still choose what Chesterton called the 'easy speeches that comfort cruel men'; or we can choose to face how vulnerable we all are and how much we need to fight against our fear of one other if trust and hope and love are to prevail when all is done. The challenge is how we stay awake to how the world is – and to how it can yet be changed.

The last word goes to another survivor of the trenches, the painter and poet David Jones, who served with the Royal Welsh Fusiliers. In his great poetic evocation of the trenches, In Parenthesis, he describes the survivors of one action getting ready for the next push –

'But how intolerably bright the morning is where we who are alive and remain, walk lifted up, carried forward by an effective word'.

The generation that has passed walked forward with vision and bravery and held together the bonds of our society, our continent, our Commonwealth through a terrible century. May we learn the lessons they learned; and God save us from learning them in the way they had to.

© Rowan Williams 2009


Wednesday, 11 November 2009

The Devil's Dictionary

From The Devil's Dictionary by Ambrose Bierce

CYNIC, n. A blackguard whose faulty vision sees things as they are, not as they ought to be.

FUTURE, n. That period of time in which our affairs prosper, our friends are true and our happiness is assured.

MAN, n. An animal so lost in rapturous contemplation of what he thinks he is as to overlook what he indubitably ought to be. His chief occupation is extermination of other animals and his own species, which, however, multiplies with such insistent rapidity as to infest the whole habitable earth and Canada.

RADICALISM, n. The conservatism of to-morrow injected into the affairs of to-day.

YESTERDAY, n. The infancy of youth, the youth of manhood, the entire past of age.

Saturday, 29 March 2008

Do not waste your time on Social Questions.
What is the matter with the poor is Poverty.
What is the matter with the Rich is Uselessness.

George Bernard Shaw.




Who shall put his finger on the work of justice and say “It is there”?
Justice is like the kingdom of God: it is not without us as a fact; it is within us as a great yearning.

George Eliot.




Monday, 24 March 2008

spiritual concepts


"I had an Idea that a man might pass a very pleasant life in this manner: Let him on a certain day read a certain passage of full poesy or distilled prose, and let him wander with it, and muse upon it, and reflect from it, and dream upon it: until it becomes stale - But when will it do so? Never-
When a man has arrived at a certain ripeness of intellect any one grand and spiritual passage serves him as a starting-post towards all the 'two and thirty Palaces'. How happy is such a voyage of conception, what delicious, diligent indolence!"

John Keats


In respect of the above sentiments I shall be publishing passages of spiritual merit for meditation selected long since by Elbert Hubbard.


Wednesday, 12 September 2007

Private Letters 24*

Hi Brunhilde,
Tel is the health and safety officer on board with Ragnor and is very strict in the enforcement of his responsibilities. He is new on board and noticed a book which Ragnor had lent to the electrician about seeing auras and asked to borrow it. It seems he has had several psychic episodes throughout his life but has always repressed and denied them. Something in the book obviously touched a sensitive spot and while he is apparently recognising that there is more to life than egg and chips he is still very frightened by what is starting to happen to him and while he doubts his own sanity it is very difficult for Ragnor to say 'Nay bother laddie it happens to me all the time' because if Tel maintains his denial posture he could in his health and safety role book Ragnor in for a visit to the psychologist which would show on his record and would probably prevent his skipper's ticket from being renewed.

Thanks for the power of your sendings, if you can continue for another few days it will probably see Ragnor through the 'at risk' window and may ease Tel into acceptance of his 'gift'.

Peace and Joy be with you all,
Karl.


Hello Brunhilde,Yes the passing years are like the Chancellor of the Exchequer, they seem to tax you a little bit harder each year. I could never get my head round the modern expression 'Less is More!' I think I understand it now, for while I can do and experience less and less each passing year, yet the intensity with which I enjoy each quiet moment of life gets more and more.I've just pruned the larger eucalyptus tree this Monday afternoon, the man who did it last year has been promising to come and do it for a couple of months. So that has saved £50 and given me great satisfaction to be able to say 'Sorry I'd given up on your ever coming to do it' if he does eventually turn up. I find their casual attitude towards keeping promises in their own time very inconsiderate and unprofessional. I've always enjoyed ladder work but I'm much more cautious about tying the ladders to a sturdy branch before I begin work now. It was such a pleasure to be out in the fresh air and sunlight, and the eucalyptus is so pungent and healing, I felt as though I was cupped protectively in its branches while I prepared it for its winter rest.Ragnor has said he will be visiting shortly, but I know he is busy refitting winches on his own salvage vessel. He had a delivery of anchor chain last week so he has to cut that to size and there will be a lot left over which needs cutting into 25 metre sections for storage. He bid on a 10 ton job lot but they delivered 28 tons so I suppose they had just looked at the heap of links and guessed.I think Tel is the only health and safety officer in the company and he visits all their ships and properties from time to time so he is unlikely to see Ragnor again as Ragnor also tends to be sent to different vessels depending on the particular salvage or survey job they are doing. Certainly Tel has to behave conservatively while on duty because of the serious responsibilities of his job. He would lose his job instantly if the owners had any doubts about his state of mind. But more importantly I get the impression that Tel has been brought up in an environment where even normal human emotions are taboo and anything 'otherworldly' is downright scary.Bonfire night is fun but the constant roar of overlapping detonations is getting harder to cope with. We've had firework parties and displays all around us since Divali started and three nights of serious pyrotechnics on Fri,Sat,Sun as well as a few tonight. It should taper off soon I hope. A shillings worth of penny and ha'penny squibs would give us weeks of anticipation and a night to talk about for a month after. I can't bear to think how many hundreds of thousands of pounds worth have gone up in smoke this past week! It's nice to know folk aren't as hard up as they were though. Our Moggies get quite concerned by the persistence of the noise as well as the exceptionally loud ones but they are more settled tonight. I'm pleased Axelia looks a bit brighter, do tell her to e-mail me if she has any specific questions and I will try to clarify things.Deep inner peace and joy be with you,Karl.
Good afternoon Karl, how did Judah's birthday go. and did she enjoy your cake? I see, there was such a strong feeling of "back off" and solidness in Tel that is what I meant why doesn't he want to be there. feels a lot better now. not so solid...need lots of smiles and warmth. just his barriers towards his gift and Ragnor and his abilities. you are right about fear Karl. Any news from Ragnor on how it is going?
We have spent two days d.i.y in the house, definitely feeling my age Karl, forgot how much time and energy it takes..phew!..got a long way to go but it definitely feels more like home. Nils built the wall back in between the living room and dining room (last owner opened it up and put an archway in)..now have separate livingroom and kitchen/dining room space. the house has taken on a more mellow feel. really think it likes being put back the way it was. I am not into open plan living. every one need their little bit of space I believe. I spent days finishing off sanding the banister and spindles with electric sander. you could say we have a bit of a mess here in Sacrestone Karl. very productive though.
Hoping this finds you on the up Karl...sunniest warmest of blessings Brunhilde.x
Hello Brunhilde,
Judah had a lovely birthday thanks, our daughters and their spouses took her out for a meal on Saturday evening, The youngest couple stayed with us overnight and the other pair came round about 10:30 to cook us all a 'Birthday Brunch'. Judah was spoilt for choice with three birthday cakes, Judah's Mum provided one of her famous lemon drizzle cakes and the youngsters bought her a chocolate 'Smartie' cake so with my cherry-coconut offering there was no shortage of fodder. I wrapped up the remaining home made cookies individually and got rid of them all for trick or treat prezzies. Thanks for your support, Ragnor should be boarding his flight back home to Scotland any time now and Tel is also leaving the ship today. I think Tel could still do with support until he learns to accept his inner self, but it is unlikely that we will come across his path again - but life is full of 'coincidences' that are just meant to happen.
I am full of admiration for your domestic vigour and Nils must be quite skilled at DIY to take on such serious projects. It is so good when you finally make your 'new house' into your real home and it fits your lifestyle like a cozy glove. It's a great feeling looking at a result you're proud of and thinking 'We did that'!
It will take me a day or two to recover from the rapid fire repartee over the weekend ( and the dental filling on Monday) but I am not too bad at all presently thank you.
Loving blessings on you and yours and throughout your homely home.
Karl.



Good afternoon Karl, what a wonderful selection of birthday cakes. It sounds like a good time was had by all. I love birthday cake but not the birthday as I always have hated fuss. and as the years roll over I definitely like them low profile ha! ha!As for d.i.y we haven't the vigour that we used to have Karl. A case of the spirit is willing but the bodies not so and even then the spirit would love to do other things. I think we burnt ourselves out with the last house we altered Karl, but we priced up certain jobs and the quotes were silly scary prices so if we can do it we will, out of necessity.Will Ragnor be visiting you Karl? Do you think it is as well they are apart for now until Tel accepts his gift Karl, I remember you calling people conservatives. this could be the case with Tel?How did you find bonfire night, it was a bit noisy here and we are not a fan so we stayed in and consoled our little dog. he was petrified of it all. Axelia visited and definitely is looking a bit brighter and is fascinated with your gift Karl...hope this finds you feeling sunny and rested. warmest of wishes Brunhilde

Good morning Karl, hoping this finds you bright and sunny. Isn’t it amazing what workmen charge..£50 to prune a tree?? you must have had great joy in doing it yourself, but isn't pruning hard work, especially the size they can grow? but a very satisfying task I find, I miss my plants and garden, we have a yard that hopefully one day will be decked with plants. like a little wilderness I always find plants so uplifting, like a little haven. The house and d.i.y has come to a standstill. time seems to go by so quickly Karl.

Axelia had a bad day unfortunately, as she has come off the steroids there has been a backward slide. which is sad to see but we are plodding on. Bodecia's leg seized up yesterday, seems after a visit from the doctor that it is coming from the neck so he has prescribed quinine I think this is to relax the muscles. not sure!! but she is bright and cheery this morning and looking forward to a day out tomorrow in her chariot, may have to get a cover or blanket as the weather is a lot chillier now, something to cover her knees. Have you much planned for the weekend Karl? just wanted to say hello and see you were okay...warmest of wishes, Brunhilde

Hello Brunhilde
I think most trades-people will charge about £15 just to come out and look at a job, At least Allan did the tree and took away all the brash last year. And the council charge trades for dumping waste now.
But it was a pleasure doing it myself, I took about 8 feet of new growth from all over the entire crown and I now have a couple of cubic metres of clippings to dispose of. I remember why small boys climb trees now, it is really exhilarating being in a high place and being close to a tree is always special. I sorted out the big leylandii on Thursday so I shall try to get a quiet weekend to recover from the unfamiliar exertion. I think DIY goes best if you do it one task at a time and give yourself a break in between. As you say, time goes quickly enough without filling it up with jobs that can wait a bit. Give my blessings and good wishes to Axelia, I do so want her to be able to grab life and fill it with everything she loves to do.
Tell Boudicca not to kick the Romans so hard until her leg is recovered, and to make sure the blades on her chariot wheels are nice and sharp. Best to cover her knees anyway, you don't want to get all the young swains too exited!
Hugs and blessings,
Karl
Good afternoon Karl. just checking in to see how you are doing? Don't know what the weather is like with you's but freezing and windy here in Sacrestone..Yuk!..and yes we still have our colds. think these germs like us!! Axelia at hospital for more tests in the morning, certainly getting their moneys worth these consultants!! How's it going with your tests? Bodecia doing okay. she came off the quinine tablets as she felt rather yuk so she is drinking a glass of tonic water a day as it has small bits of quinine in it(but told her DEFINATELY NO gin ha! ha!) just wanted to say hello and have a good weekend...
Warmest of wishes from Brunhilde in a very chilly Sacrestone..


Hello Brunhilde,
Lovely to get your bright and cheery e-mail thank you. It's weather and a half here too, Half freezing, half raining and it ain't half windy too. I couldn't sleep last night, dropped off about 9.45 this morning, postman delivered a parcel about 10.15, dropped off again and Ragnor rang about 11 o'clock for a few minutes but he's in the North Sea near Holland and his weather was so bad the phone connection broke down. So unless my eyes decide to close this afternoon I expect I shall sleep well tonight.
I think my tests are over and hopefully with no untoward findings, they've made me an appointment for 13th Dec to tell me my biopsy results. They can't be very worrying or they would have seen me sooner.(MAYBE?)
Give Axelia my best wishes and encouragement. The Sun is for power and light, warmth and life. The Sky-clad Lady is the creator, the weaver and shaper, the giver of love, experience, hope, everything needful. The Sanctuary door-knocker is about accepting all these givens for it also gives (blessing and protection to those who choose to accept it) and its real meaning is about making positive choices and moving forward joyfully and confidently to the next significant choice.
I didn't realise you were such a meany, all that tonic and no gin! Poor Boudicca! - I'm sure the gin kills more bugs than the tonic will but I suppose she'd lose her chariot license if she drank gin all the time!
Bless you all, keep on keeping on and smile in your heart whatever happens - it's all for a purpose, promise.
Karl.


Good morning Karl. the sun is out here in Sacrestone and the wind chill isn't so chilly thankfully. and hoping this finds you as bright as the sunshine. It is good they aren't in a hurry for the biopsy results. but such a drain waiting isn't it. and just before Christmas too. you must be finding hospitals and appointments as yuk as we do this end. but a necessity I know. We are still awaiting an appointment for Axelia. bet its just before Christmas too!!
Our Marcos’ wife Karina had a caesarian yesterday, they decided to bring the birth forward and his little son was born yesterday afternoon. the spitting double of his dad..bless.he didn't need the special care unit as had been thought and was breathing on his own and oxygen levels ok at the moment. He will still need surgery for the hole in his heart, and we await news as to when as if in straight away or in a few weeks. The little mite certainly has fight and determination to be here Karl. isn’t it so amazing something so small has such strength. the human spirit is awesome Karl. And as for Bodecia..she would love the gin. but is banned for her own good (not that she sees it that way)..legs are wobbly enough to start with can you imagine if she had a few drinks..blimey! mind you if in her chariot she would be safe. but the people around her wouldn't be. she would wizz around merrily barking orders ha! ha! warmest of merry nearly Christmas wishes Karl (I love saying that.) I will now drive people nuts with my Yule tide blessings as I do every year ha! ha!


Merry Wednesday Wishes to you too,
Such good news for Marcos and Karina and MkII. (Or in view of his speedy arrival perhaps that should be Mach2.) I send heartiest blessings and greetings to the newborn and his parents and will prepare a ritual call on the 6 arch-angel guardians during his operation as and when you keep me informed. He's got a flying start with you as Auntie radiating your goodness and blessings everywhere.
All blessings to you and yours.
Merry Yule-coming
Karl

Good morning Karl, and many thanks for the blessings. Little Isajon is holding his own bless him, I have attached a photo for you. Isn’t it amazing how something so small has so much inner strength. The doctors will need to operate on the hole in his heart possibly at 6 months. Marcos and Karina are coping well bless them. but he will be home soon and that they are wary of, in the hospital they know help is at hand if anything were to go untoward.
Axelia has got three appointments before Christmas, they are going to do that thing were she swallows the little camera on the 13th of December, but the way her system moves fast(putting it politely) there is doubt it will be able to pick up images but they still want to go ahead to see if it shows up the inflammation and what it is. It should pass through (putting it politely again!) but if not they have to operate to retrieve it. have you heard of this camera thing being done Karl? How are you? and did you have a nice weekend?
Thankyou again for the blessings. it is like that old saying "strength in unity"...take care & warmest of wishes from a sunny but chilly Sacrestone.x

Hello Dear Brunhilde,
Thank you for the lovely picture of little Isajon. I get a very positive feeling about him, that he has come for a purpose and won't be put off till he's done what he came for. I don't do natal charts any more but my first feelings were always pretty reliable - the readings always confirmed my impressions.
Our girls were premature and tiny and I remember the anxious nights of care we passed when they first came home, sleeping lightly and waking up the instant there was a change in their breathing. A complete waste of time but that is what parenting is about, needless worry to cover all the 'what ifs?' that don't usually happen anyway.

I've heard of the 'capsule-camera' but I've never come across anyone whose swallowed one before. I'll be thinking of Axelia and sending support as always.

Judah and I both had a rough weekend, Judah had a bug that gave her a migraine and tummy upset and I had it yesterday and the headache is lessening but lingering for both of us. I've been quite busy lately and am very weary, but I have managed to do a little bit of photography today - the light is wonderful but the temperature ain't!

Loving blessings to you all, especially to yourself - so busy blessing and caring for everyone else.
All shall be well,
Karl.

Thursday, 30 August 2007

Private letters *23

Hello Brunhilde,
I think once you realize that the spiritual life is one journey through many physical incarnations then you will find all kinds of signals that give you clues as to which individuals you have experienced. The clues tend to be a bit like 'deja vu' where you recognise a place or a picture, or maybe a passage in a book or a particular scent or piece of music. Even mundane tasks can remind you of a previous life in which you performed the same task perhaps with drudging repetition or perhaps to a very high level of skill or perhaps with a significant result. Mostly it seems the moments when we have been most creative or successful or beneficial in some way, the special sacred moments of a lifetime are the ones we seem to bring forward in time with us. Which probably accounts for why so many people who recall previous lives seem to recall being a significant person. I'm sure ordinary lives of quiet service are very important and help us develop enduring wisdom but the lives of social leaders and innovators are more memorable if no more important. Often I don't pick up on the clues initially but perhaps in meditation later the old memory is stirred by a recent similar event. Also, as in the case of the master-armourer, a past life will be revealed in a dream and a deep part of you will recognise that some dreams are actual memories from previous times. I have the impression that I have only skimmed the surface of my previous lives in this one. And that is as it should be for this life is the one to experience fully now and between lives we can ruminate upon and analyse all the total of our lives.
I wish you Joy and Delight and a fuller understanding as you allow yourself to reach out from your present centre and dip into the good bits of previous ones.
Every now and again you will come across a person who is a brand new soul with no previous Earth experience, you will recognise them by a certain quality of innocence and freshness. Be especially considerate of such folk, by shielding them from some of the world's worst experiences you will help establish their 'career' and give them a chance to grow up whole and unwarped and able to bring special blessings back each time they reincarnate.
Love and Peace,
Karl


Good afternoon Karl, and hoping this finds you more rested and feeling a lot brighter of the body and spirit. Are your results back yet or is a longer wait for the results expected? Isn't it frustrating the time delay after the tests. I hate that like with Axelia...sometimes my patience wears thin. and I wonder do they just guess!! Axelia was back in hospital on Saturday..7 hours of tests. She is now back at work bless her she just wishes they could sort it all out but Karl this is the first lot of antibiotics she has had. so fingers crossed it may help. you like us must be tiring of tests and hospitals. there are better places to visit Karl. hopefully they get your body sorted soon too.

I am fascinated with your insight through out your life(I say that as we are talking about you as entirety.. of all the lives as in we have lived for many many years. too many to think about really. as we couldn’t grasp the time easily) so we have lived for eons of time and have had body after body and it is so easy to think of it in body terms as if they were separate life times. but it is just us everending in different bodies and different roles we have took on. I guess the first block comes from thinking in body terms rather than spiritual. we think as a body so we couldn't have lived before scenario. You have such an ease in looking at your time track and who you have been. unfortunately I still have my blocks!! So have you found you can look at your lives with ease naturally or do you have to meditate or something? I have the feeling it comes easily to you...warmest wishes Brunhilde
Good afternoon Karl. well it is Friday. this week has flown over in a blink! Axelia is back at hospital tonight for check up so see what the consultant says. She has dumped the boyfriend as amongst all this he flew off on holiday Sunday morning. so wasn't there for her at all. it turns out he is quite a liar and weak. so has probably been draining her energies. well actually there is no probably. I would say definitely he has!. she has had many tears this week but looked a lot brighter and stronger last night. She is still thinking of taking on a rented flat and says why should I lose all my goals and dreams just because he wasn't the one. my only concern is her heart and her health but luckily it is only a few minutes drive away. you watch. the landlord will probably ring and say it is ready now!!! but if she does then she is ready for her growth and she will learn by the independance, she really is a lovely young woman Karl..and I would say that even if she wasn’t my daughter ha! ha!

I love the way you explain things Karl, with such clarity and wisdom. I guess growth does not come over night. and I will have to learn patience. hoping this finds you feeling stronger and smilier have a great weekend. warmest wishes Hild


Bless you Brunhilde,
Your messages always make me smilier. It looks like personal development time all round! It always hurts to break up with a partner, even if they are pretty useless. When you have invested so much of your love, energy and life into a partner who proves unsupportive in times of need you get the multiple pains of loss, regret, resentment, doubt, and absence of the comforting familiar presence just when you need it most. But Axelia has made a good sensible decision and it is very hard to be logical when the emotions are involved. She will certainly know what to look for in her future chosen life partner. But it is so hard to trust anyone again after such a betrayal and trust is something you must be able to give, without it nobody can be comfortable in a meaningful partnership. I know you will keep a loving eye on her while trying to support her independence ( if that isn't a two-way contradiction of terms). Try keeping your third-eye open for her, trust your intuition and talk openly with her about any concerns it may suggest. You are opening up to your inner gifts, this is perhaps the moment to exercise them?
Blessings of Power be with you all,
Karl.

Good afternoon Karl. well Axelia has taken the flat. and after lots of tears she is looking and sounding a lot brighter than she was.. I am feeling more relieved than I was last week...phew! The flat has wonderful views of the countryside and there are field just out the back of it. if my brain cells remember I will take my camera and send you a photo. it will help her inner peace I am sure. it will just take time Karl. There is a fine line between looking out for her and dampening her enthusiasm. and her own goals. I am learning fast...How have things been with you Karl. I have noticed that you have been quiet. did you get the results back from the hospital. and if so were they okay? I noticed that you said they thought it was possibly chrones, does that mean you have the same awful pains as Axelia? Whatever it is I hope they make great inroads to solving it for you Karl warmest wishes Brunhilde



Hello Brunhilde,
I am pleased for you that you have coped so well through the crisis and I share your sense of relief. I'm sure the pleasant scenery will be beneficial for Axelia and help her to heal and progress..... especially with your subtle support and overshadowing eye.

I'm not suffering too much with the in'ards thank you. As usual I'm having more problems from the medics than from my condition. I'm being given the run around trying to get my biopsy results, but my latest chat from the consultant was quite reassuring......... just not definite. I've also had to see the DHSS doctor to assess that I am unwell enough to continue to receive the pitiful benefit our government so grudgingly pay back from a lifetime's contributions. It was a fairly harassing hour long interview, but I felt I managed to slowly gain his respect and concern. He suggested towards the end of the session that perhaps I should be thinking about the possible onset of dementia and see if my GP might arrange for a specific MRI scan to see if there were any amyloidal platelets forming in my brain. The problem is I can see how he might well have a point. It is a possibility which I find exceedingly daunting... a pathway which I do not wish to travel. By way of apology for my quietness I am extremely tired and increasingly short on energy as a result of the combined effects of anaemia and ME. I hope to pick up a bit now a more settled routine is expected. Thank you for your kind thoughts.
Be Well, Be Blessed,
Karl.
Hello Karl, and I apologise for the delay. if I say life. you will understand!! Officialdom makes me mad Karl, these people that assess are so over paid to assess people in need that would truly love to have their life in such a way with no pain and do do what they wanted to do when they wanted. and as you say it is a pitiful amount that is paid. the people that are paid to assess get far more. I am just pleased that the person that came to see you was at least humane. as a lot aren't.
Why would the chap think you have the onset of dementia?. you have the sharpest brain and so aware Carl. someone with your awareness could not possibly be on the road to dementia. and how come you are agreeing with him and seeing he has a point?? I believe you are tired Karl of all the tests and the ME and being anaemic. so draining. but please do not give in to these silly overpaid oafs of officialdom and their pompousness views. and I find as in with Axelia the most draining part is the ongoing relentless tests that the doctors perform. with no end result. no definite answer. I see her get so drained and weary as she just as she says "wants her life back” and so far. still looking for the answer. love and respect to you and our Axelia for the courage and determination you show on your journey to be well and whole again. and may these medics find the answer for you both very soon...
warmest of wishes as always Brunhilde



Dear wise Brunhilde,
Thank you so much for your righteous indignation on my behalf. Life is indeed a small word to encompass such dire and joyous complexities and everything in between, but to we who have lived a bit 'life' is the complete justification for everything.
I've had a bit of a cold this past week and being bunged up and snuffly has disturbed my sleep and tiredness is my main problem. I did manage to get out today and buy Judah a new rotary clothes line but I am so unfit, by the time I had driven in the ground spike I was perspiring profusely. The trouble with getting tools out of the garage is that I see all the unfinished projects I have started and want to complete soon and I have to admit it will be spring before I stand a chance of sorting it all out. When I get over all the medical attention I intend to do a couple of 15 minute work sessions a day just to keep my hand in.
My brain still works fine, just much slower than before and occasionally bits of it stop working altogether for a few minutes. As when 50 yards from my front door I suddenly cease to recognise where I am, it's as if I had never seen this spot before. It does nor bother me because I know I can't be far from home and in a minute or two my mind will clear and I will know my whereabouts again.
Brother Misha and Anika, his wife, were going to Virginia for a fortnight from 6th October but Misha collapsed at the airport and spent four days in Hollingdon Hospital and they have just got home tonight and e-mailed me. I do wish he'd ease up a bit, but I think that's a waste of a wish knowing Misha.

Did Axelia ever get to the Cathedral North door? It has popped into my head 2 or 3 times that she ought to make the short pilgrimage, there is a feeling I have that Carileph has a blessing for her there.
Deepest respects and richest blessings,
Karl




Hi Brunhilde,
Just a line to let you know I'm starting to recover from my cold and getting moving about a bit better - I hope it lasts!
I know life has been demanding for you lately so I regularly send out blessings to you and your family in an attempt to offer such spiritual support as I am able.
Trust in your own inner wisdom and rely on the power of your courage to find the way forward.
Peace be with you,
Karl.

Good morning Karl, so pleased to hear you are feeling much better and brighter. me I have succumbed to a cold. drat!! think it is more the ups and downs of life more that the soggy weather though Karl. How is your brother Misha, you say he had collapsed? is he okay now? Mum doing fine, she is a lot brighter for going to the day out place, day centre I think it is called, she loves it as it is her own little bit of independence. Axelia is still up and down but enjoying her flat, it really is lovely with it being all re vamped. I just wish this house looked as good Karl, I was hoping to have it done for Christmas but time is flying by!!
Axelia, with having the poops (to put it politely) and having the pain hasn't been getting far and out and about for ages, so hasn't been to the cathedral Karl, I wish there was another way she could get the blessing. You say you have been having lapses where you forget where you are for a short time, have the doctors any idea what has caused this? I thought this was a woman thing Karl. I and a lot of women have that. usually I find there is not enough attention on the present time. in other words too much going on in the brain cells at once. the other thing us women have is where we wish we weren't there...ha! ha!
Thankyou for your blessings and support Karl. I think my inner wisdom has waned a bit or perhaps the word is drained...foggy heads are not a good scenario. but it will pass. have a great weekend Karl....warmest wishes Brunhilde
Hi Brunhilde,
Keep warm and keep yourself as comfortable as possible with lots of hot sipping drinks with honey and lemon juice. I used to shake off a cold in three days, it is nearly three weeks with this one and I'm not completely rid of it yet.
Brother Misha has had a dicky-ticker for several years now but it is well controlled by medication except at times of stress. He damaged his leg in his early twenties and it didn't heal straight. While he would never admit to it being a bother it has always caused him pain when standing still for more than a few minutes, so the three hour crawl through the check in at the airport finally got to him. Four days in hospital got his heart back into a steady normal rhythm, but it seems to have taken its toll on his confidence. He's said absolutely nothing to me about the entire incident. (We usually make bets about which of us gets to the other's funeral when either of us is a bit dodgier than usual but he didn't raise the stakes this time so I guess he thinks he might be the loser - he only ever bets on certainties.)
I'm pleased for Boadicea ( sorry, that's the way I think of your Mum) It is so heartening when life starts to open up and offer new interests and opportunities. Tell her 'Yo Momma!' from me ( I believe that is the current buzz word for 'What Ho old thing').
Axelia obviously needs her own space and I am pleased she has succeeded in finding a pleasant environment. ( Quite an achievement really!)
I'm an expert on dodgy bowels, mostly they just need careful regular consideration, diet and management.
Finding what suits and what upsets is fairly straight forward given time and disciplined application.

I think I might be able to put something together that might bring the sanctuary door to Axelia. I had it in mind for a while but my condition has prevented me for a while. I'll try working on it this weekend.

I think you are right about over-tiring the little grey cells, but it gets harder to switch off - life gets more interesting as you get less able to respond to it.

Warm and cozy blessings,
Karl


Hi Brunhilde,
Just a line to let you know I'm starting to recover from my cold and getting moving about a bit better - I hope it lasts!
I know life has been demanding for you lately so I regularly send out blessings to you and your family in an attempt to offer such spiritual support as I am able.
Trust in your own inner wisdom and rely on the power of your courage to find the way forward.
Peace be with you,
Karl.


Hi Brunhilde
I've completed the construction of a flat-warming present for Axelia, it is superficially like a martingale of horse-brasses so she can display it or put it in the bottom of a drawer as she wishes. Hopefully I shall be able to consecrate it tonight and post it on Monday.
The top piece is a small Tudor rose of considerable antiquity, it is the emblem of Leicester my home town and is also an emblem of the Goddess. The next piece is a solar symbol radiating all the blessings of light and warmth, energy and vitality. Then comes a representation of the Goddess as a woman full of life, grace and beauty; delighting in following the spiritual and physical paths completely and uninhibitedly. Finally a tribute to the knocker on the sanctuary door of Durham cathedral. I have set a large lilac zircon behind this to give a gleam to the eyes and enabling it to convey the blessing of Bishop Caryleph who I believe commissioned the original design which recognises the natural pagan beliefs which the church was supplanting at that time.
The following words I put together with love in the hope that they might provide Axelia with some clues for her to consider concerning her choices of inner direction.
Bless you all,
Karl.

for Axelia

Blessed be by Sun and Moon this very hour,
Healed and upheld by the Lady’s power.
Comfort, Peace and Wisdom come to you,
Accept and understand the Bishop’s clue.

Jack-in-the-Green is this knocker’s name
Which offers sanctuary from life’s bitter game.
Gently turn aside from grief and strife
And follow Nature’s pathway into life.

All that occurs is Mother-nature’s plan
We truly must learn from her all we can.
She gives her children tough and tender care
Each in due measure our apportioned share.

No matter where you are nor what you do
The sacred Mother’s love is always true.
Her mystic purpose is our spirits’ growth
And all her power is vested in this truth.

Have done with worry, cares and grief,
Open your inner eye to find relief.
The very power that forged your sacred soul
Has your eternal blessing as its goal.

All shall be well…………….. Exceeding well.


Hi Brunhilde,

Blessed be,

Rich peace of the growing Earth is yours,
High peace of the blowing air is yours,
Bright peace of the glowing fire is yours,
Clear peace of the flowing water's yours,
Inner peace of the knowing soul is yours,
Utter peace of the going home is yours.

"My peace I give unto you."
Shanti, shanti, Om-shanti.
Karl

Good afternoon Karl, from a not so sniffly Brunhilde. I am feeling brighter today, don't know whether it is my brightness that made the cold bits shift or the cold bits shifting made me feel brighter.but so so relieved.How are you. must admit you are emanating more brightness Karl.

Thankyou for the blessings. I have now printed them off. I wanted to ask if you had done a blessing for Axelia as there is definitely a change, she is brighter and stronger in herself Karl, although what ails is still there the change is obvious even Nils has noticed these past days with her. and she appears more solid. you will know what I mean!

The flat warming gift is so special, thankyou Karl.x I feel like it will strengthen her more and protect her in & with strength. I know what I mean. just not putting this down right Karl!! I just wish I could do a blessing back Karl, if in any way that thought and feelings count. then I am with you..

Sacrestone at one time belonged to the church, its old name is sacristant, the word sacristant has some religious meaning. not sure what though Karl.

Warmest of sunniest feelings from a heart warmed Brunhilde...thankyou Karl. x


Hello Brunhilde,
Thank you for sharing my cold, I'm glad yours has cleared up too!
I've just been down to the Post Office and posted Axelia's prezzy in time for the 2pm collection so it should turn up tomorrow or Thursday at latest.
I must admit I think it looks quite well to my biased eyes, even the leather work has a subtle embossed floral motif in keeping with its spiritual purpose and the synthetic binding back-strap serves as a reminder of mankind's ability to adapt and create useful and strong materials and co-create alongside nature.

I am pleased Axelia is gaining strength and feels brighter, I have been deeply concerned on her behalf and will continue to send blessings as and when I am able.

I think you express your deepest feelings very powerfully although no words will ever quite match the reality. Thank you for the good wishes and of course thoughts and feelings count - they are the strongest energies we humans produce. I think I mentioned the four steps to performing spiritual operations - to know, to will, to dare and to remain silent, you certainly have the will and the courage to send me a blessing. Trust me in this, I know you send me blessings because your messages are so uplifting, now you know too! - your very intention to bless me sends me a blessing - this is how our spirits work.
As you come to understand this truth more deeply you will be able to deliberately make sendings when and where you will.
A sacristant is a servant of the church, their duties vary from place to place but usually include the kinds of duties a warden or sexton would perform, preparing and maintaining the church for services. Unlocking, lighting lamps and candles, mending and cleaning vestments and altar furniture, acting as guides and ushers and all the mundane duties without which the spiritual work of the church would be less effective and the church itself less attractive.
The name Sacriston would suggest a town of caring loving people who gladly serve the church's everyday needs.

Thank you,
Karl
Good afternoon Karl, your gift has arrived. and we have a very delighted Axelia and she has read your e-mail and blessing and understands the joy she feels is not only the gift and the time you put in to design and make it but mostly the feeling behind it. her smile lit up the room Karl. what a wonderful way to start the day. it made my heart sing. truly did Karl..thankyou.x She will be calling back here tonight to pick it up and take it with her. I understand now about blessings and feelings. and I send as always the sunniest ones to you. filled with warmth and strength...and I am even happy to share your cold ha! ha! I thought it was on the way out but I got soaked to the skin yesterday. one day I may grow to like umbrellas!!!!but happy to say the sun is shining brightly as I write this...
warmest heartfelt wishes from a happy Brunhilde here in Sacer-stone.



Hi Karl, just had to say your feeling on my mum is spot on....Bodecia fits her perfectly...that is her through and through. I will smile each time I see her from now on Brunhilde

If she asks, tell her I have always admired Boudicca tremendously, I really feel she is the archetype of British womanhood.
K.



Dear Brunhilde,
Thank you for your blessing and sunny feelings, you really are a shining light upon my path. I'm glad my little present was well received and seems to be having the required effect, my heart tells me Axelia is finding her true self and her right path, also that she has a significant contribution to make to the world, perhaps in the spiritual realm.

The final stages of making Axelia's talisman were 'baptism' with water from the sacred well at Glastonbury and anointing with frankincense. Both powerful cleansing and vitalising ceremonies which should focus the built in energies of the item to continually support and protect Axelia as well as provide her with a link to the sanctuary door whence the blessing of Bishop Caryleph reaches out to her.

If you feel able, it would support my work if you could spend a few moments thinking of Ragnor in Norwegian waters at present and a shipmate of his called Tel. If you could send them one of your joyous, glowing blessings because Tel is in psychic crisis at the moment and if he makes adverse choices now it could disrupt Ragnor's spiritual path. Ragnor is tough enough to weather any storm but I fear Tel is very fragile and vulnerable at present. Just face North-Eastish, raise your arms (rather like the Lady on Axelia's talisman) and give them a dazzling smile and good wishes. Do not do this if you have any reservations about it, but if it seems good to you then give it a try please.

All blessings and healing,
Karl.
Good evening Karl, just had to let you know Axelia is still so delighted, wish I could convey into words the change in her Karl,it is subtle but strong. like a light inside her has come back on. and I know you will know what I mean! and like you I believe she has a huge contribution to make to the world. what is that saying Karl "watch this space" ha! ha! and it is strange Karl, but I have felt different too since your gift arrived, I do believe that the blessing from Bishop Caryleph will reach her when she reaches too, like a flow. two way. no matter where she is. thanks to your help Karl..thankyou.x
I have done as you asked, and will continue to do so Karl, what a wonderful feeling of matter,energy,space and time. of growing and reaching out. and love and knowing, and why does Tel not want to be there? just wanted to say hello. and have a lovely weekend Karl. thinking of you with a smiley heart...Brunhilde and the crew.x

Bless you all Brunhilde,
Judah's birthday tomorrow......expect the kids will be visiting.......I've made Judah a cake......scurrying about like a March hare....need a rest now.
More later,
Love and Peace,
Karl. 23*